Connor and the little blob did it.

So many people have said it over the years and for some reason, it fell on deaf ears. But Connor said it, and I heard something. Why Connor, (a precocious 22 year old) and why then?


Maybe I was ready, maybe my little fire in my belly is a reason. Up until now I had so little to fight for, and not much to really live for. Things have changed.


I have a little blob that has decided to reside in my tummy, and hormones aside, I know that I’m attempting to bring a new human into this crazy, and neglected… nay abused world. What kind of life is this little person going to live? Will digital bullying still be prevalent, but the technology will be embedded and permanent with no way to switch off? Or will we be headed into social chaos, civilization collapse and a destiny of basic survival in slums and piles of garbage?


Should I carry this little thing? Should I, despite ever more hungry mouths and ever more economic instability, tyranny, and religious upheaval, carry this little blob to humanhood? What do I have to offer this new life within, or society at large for that matter? You may be wondering why I correlate these two things, but really, when and if this little blob becomes an adult, the responsibility of guiding this person to be a happy, whole human that has healthy values, and an open yet discerning mind is mine….well and a little of baby daddy too 😉


How do I protect that person from the dangers of indoctrination, yet not indoctrinate them myself? How do I show them that the world is actually full of beautiful humans, and amazing things that are worth loving and protecting, yet ensure that they are always wary of the few people out to harm others?


I want to make sure this being is raised in a balanced, aware environment with no judgement, but opportunities to grow, flourish and feel secure.


Which leads me to what I have to offer. If I’m already thinking about it, I suppose what I mentioned above are related to my core values, and that is what I want for all people.


I want all humans to have the opportunity to be themselves, and the opportunity to cultivate their strengths and find ways to overcome their weakness. I want all humans to have a future that they can determine, and have the ability to choose what is best for themselves, without fear of reprisal, without fear of pain or loss of personal security.


I want wars to stop, because no human, deserves to live in fear. I want to see all humans have the opportunity to place what they have to offer on society’s table, and have society embrace their unique perspective, and skillset to help move us forward.


Each person has the most understanding what would serve themselves and their community best, and at this point in history,  humans at large are being prevented from becoming the best they can be, prevented for being everyday heros, from learning their passions and strengths, and losing the opportunity to offer themselves to their community at large. They live life unfulfilled, and are told, “That’s all there is.” by other people who are resting in the lap of luxury, playing, and exploring the world at large and their souls within. Those who have either learned and have little moral direction that have happily fudged the rules that everyone is expected to abide by, and stepped on other people to get there, and many others who were born into it thinking that they are entitled regardless of the fact that they just happened to win the uterine lottery.


The American Dream has become a surreal nightmare.


I never thought of the American Dream as financial success, but more a concept of a place where one could go to self actualize, and live a life of fulfillment and personal security from Imperialism and tyranny. A dream where, as long as one gave back to their community, a person would have free reign to flourish in their own way, and cut new paths to the future. Where hard work and a little moxie could open new vistas that hadn’t been discovered.


But now the American Dream has been tainted and slowly converted to the same values that the founding fathers of the nations of America had left behind them. The American Dream no longer supports ingenuity, freedom or fulfillment.


And now that the world is full, and there are no more frontiers where we can go to build it better, and have the life we want for ourselves and our loved ones, what do we do?


How do we build civilization in a civil and whole manner, while we watch our human brothers and sisters get all blown to pieces for profit and power, in the name of peace and god? How do people that are peaceful prevent the fighting of people that aren’t peaceful, without getting caught in the crossfire or jailed for voicing our opinions?


How do we reclaim the American Dream and share that Dream with others around the world? And I mean share. Not forcefully place it one others….  How do I let my unborn child have that opportunity, and at the same time ensure that my loving neighbors around the world have those same opportunities to “Be who they are” in a safe and nurturing environment?


Imagine a world where all people could bring their strengths to the table, without fear of reprisal or judgement, and were able to have rational discussions and give it (see humanity) their best. What kind of world could we have?


Imagine resources shared, and knowledge shared with no need for a PhD or a CEO designation for one’s personal understanding to hold credence among one’s peers? And the foundational ability to act upon that knowledge and build better things regardless of monetary value?


Imagine a world where mothers have a say in their children’s education, a say in their own body and to determine their own existence, and where fathers can provide the means without undermining their masculinity or personal development? A world where both parents give guidance and resources to ensure that child can also be the best they can be, without fear of war, famine, disease, and death with the added benefit of hellfire for thinking for oneself?


Connor told me, I have a lot to offer the world but I don’t know what it is yet. And he was right. I don’t. But I’m trying to figure it out, and now I have a reason to do so quickly.

But what I do know, is that I have big hopes for the human race, I have big hopes for the blob growing inside, and at this point, until I know what I have to offer, I will give my best effort for now, which is write, dissect and modernize old wisdom, and create beauty around me, and show love and compassion to all I encounter including myself.

Why? Because all humans deserve better, and all humans have something to offer.


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